Okay. So the first thing I’m going to say is sorry. Sorry to anyone who has been waiting for me to post for 6 months and I haven’t. But let’s be honest. Most of you probably forgot you followed me or forgot I existed and I get that. I honestly don’t really know why I stopped blogging, because it brought me so much happiness. I’m going to try again. If you’re wondering where I have been, I’m going to tell you.
So basically I went through hell and back during the months of March, April, and May this year. As some of you who remember me may know, my mom was going through a tough battle with breast cancer, and we thought she had won, but of course it couldn’t be that easy. They found more cancer and she was in the hospital and I thought I was gonna have to do the rest of my growing up without a mom. There was a while where I lost hope and didn’t know how I could go on with my life again. I started to hate myself, I even thought about suicide. All of these things happening in my life were leading to very negative thoughts. And then a miracle happened. She started to get better, slowly, but it was happening. By the time summer started, she was back to being my mom again. I was so happy with my life, the world, and everything around me. It wasn’t until after those terrifying few months, when I really started to figure out who I was. That summer I became happy and confident with myself and I had some of the greatest moments of my life. Once school came back a few weeks ago, I started to lose confidence again. I felt ugly and unwanted and I just hated everything about school. I was having one of those times when you just get into a funk and can’t get out. I still feel this way, but I wanted to do something about, that’s why I opened up my laptop and started typing on my blof.
Now that I’m blogging again, I want to make sure I am completely 100% real with you guys and post what I want to post. I will most likely be posting “poems” I write or just anything to be honest. Comment down below and suggestions for me and just the fact that you read this far means the world to me. Xx